I did something today that most people do everyday without giving it a second thought. I got into the drivers seat of our car, placed the key in the keyhole and turned it, spurring up the engine, seatbelt on, hand brake up, gear stick moved into it’s place of 1st AND then took a massive breather and pulled out into the road and drove off!
If you have read my previous post on my fear of driving you would know about why I find it so hard to drive a car.
I can’t just get into a car on impulse like most, I have to plan my journey. I have to know which way I’m going, hopefully missing out as many hills and roundabouts as possible, I make sure that I only drive when I know the toads will not be too busy and I don’t like driving in the rain or dark. I sound like a right nightmare dont I? Don’t get me wrong if I need to drive then I will but I do prefer not to.
Since my last post on driving the Other Half has gone and invested in a up to date family car, he went and bought a Ford Galaxy! Now! our last car was a Peugeot Estate and I found that to be too big for me, so when he pulled up outside our house in a 7 seated car I felt like crying not because I was excited but because I was so scared of the shear size of it.
My first experience in the new car was with my Mummy by my side, just to give me a bit of confidence and I know if anyone shouted at me whilst I was driving mummy would shout back at them for me lol. I think it went well, I drove to my sisters house which is about 5 miles away and I got back to pick the boys up from school in one piece.
So seeing as my first attempt at driving the new car went AOK I thought that today I would take the boys to the swimming pool in the car.
The family session started at 2:00 and it was nearly 1:00 so I thought that I would drive up the road to visit a friend for 30 minutes before heading off to the pool. Everything was going well until I hit the traffic lights, I stopped, waited for Amber, got my gears ready and pulled away only I wasn’t in the correct gear and I stalled half way across the road (cross road traffic lights) I tried again and I stalled the second time, still stuck in the middle of the crossroad with cars ready to come forward I tried again, the car started and off I drove. There was a turning a couple of metres ahead so I turned in and pulled up on the pavement. Silly me! I was trying to drive the car in third gear as the new car has 6 gears and obviously not in the same place as the other cars was. My leg that was on the clutch was shaking uncontrollably, it was bobbing up and down and I couldn’t stop it, I turned off the engine took a few deep breaths. Once I had calmed myself down, I set off again, this time taking it slowly and sticking to the small side roads just so I could get used to gearstick. I eventually came to the A road that the pool was just off of, I was driving along quite smoothly at 55 just about to take my turning off when a bloody car cut right infront of me, “You F***ing A***hole” I shout only to be told off by my little four year old for swearing. I swerve to the left just as I am about to take the exit and I only go and hit the bloody kerb, now I’m crying, what the hell is wrong with me? am I that much of a bad driver?
Why can’t I be like other drivers who are full of confidence and enjoy driving around!
Eventually we arrive at the pool, I’m still shaking, my palms are sweaty, my hands are red from the grip I have had on the steering wheel and my heart is beating ten to the dozen. I get out of the car feeling a bit woozy and light headed, atleast we are all in one piece and just about to have some fun in the swimming pool.
I didn’t even want to think about the journey home, I just wanted to get out of the car, luckily enough the OH came to the rescue and cycled back from work to pick us all up so he could drive us home.
Thank you daddy!