Day 5 #FMSphotoaday LOVE

Love is easy for me to portray in a photograph as I would normally just take a picture of all 3 of my boys, but as Jak isn’t around until Sunday (he’s away) it just doesn’t feel right, taking a photo of Joseph with Oliver and not Jak!

But this picture is just too cute to share

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Joseph is blowing me kisses!

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Mum! My heart hurts!

Yesterday we travelled to Gatwick airport as a family of 5 but returned home as a family of 4! Our eldest son, Jak, has travelled over to  Amsterdam with the English National Opera to perform in Death In Venice in the Music Theatre over there.

Jak was very excited about the adventure he was about to embark on, he has been abroard only once before when he was 4 years old, so he was looking forward to flying on an aeroplane as much as visiting an new country and city. He has gone with the whole of the production team who he has become quite close with a few of since beginning to rehearse with them back in May, that chaperones that were with him in the west end productions and rehearsals are the same ones that he has travelled with.

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This is an amazing experience for Jak and his acting career, which he is adamant he wants to pursue, he loves acting so this is a brilliant opportunity for him. Ever since he was a little boy at the age of two years old and he walked up onto the stage at a holiday site, he has never looked back, he has become hungry for the attention and the light that shines on him.

Yesterday was an emotional day, it was hard to wave him goodbye at the departure lounge, i know he will be back in 6 days and that he is good safe hands but i still had that urge to just grab him and hold him back to keep him with me.

Joseph found it very hard to handle, he wouldn’t let go of Jak’s suitcase and attached himself to it, shouting and crying for him not to leave him, It was so hard to watch. As much as the boys argue and fight they love being with each other and are always cuddling one another. By the time Jak was ready to walk through to the departure lounge Joseph was sobbing away and was trying to grab him over the barriers.

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One last wave and this was the last i saw of my smiling excited sons face

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As it was also Joseph’s birthday, we took him as a treat to Partyman World at Lakeside, it took his mind off of not having his brother around for a while but he was soon sitting down in the corner of the play area on his own, Daddy and I tried to replace the space that Jak has left and ran around with him, throwing balls at each other, sliding down curly slides, crawling through tunnels and pretended to drive space ships through the air but it didn’t work, he was soon missing his bog brother again and we was tired out.

We bought Joseph his favourite food, chinese noodles, but he wouldn’t eat them, saying that his belly aches! He went to bed upset and empty, he awoke at midnight asking for me to sleep with him, i laid in his bed and cuddled him for hours. He awoke this morning complaining of a belly ache still, i asked him where it hurt and what the pain felt like, he replied

“My tummy and heart hurts! I feel sick but i’m not!”

I think what my little boy is feeling is emptiness from missing his big brother. He has gone off of his food and he is not sparkly at all today.

Since coming home from school he has just sat on the sofa (unlike him) and watched TV.

Only 5 more days to go!

 

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Love Is………….!

The boys and I was talking the other day about love and what it meant to us. Joseph said love is his Mummy and Jak said love is in the trees and i said love is a circle. We all had different ideas of what it meant to us, the conversation lasted for about half an hour, it really made me think of what love is and how we all look at it in out different ways depending on age.

So Here is our list of what the boys and I think what love is:

Love is a Tree because it is alive and forever growing

Love is a Seed because once planted and given care and attention it grows and grows into a beautiful thing

Love is The Sea because of how powerful it can be, it’s forceful and strong

Love is a path that can lead you to many places

Love is the wind blowing freely from one place to another

Love is a Rose, beautiful and pretty but can be a but prickly at times

Love is in water, free flowing and strong

Love is a fire burning away brightly, it’s hot and steamy and can be dangerous

Love is a Circle, it is eternal and non stopping

Love is everywhere, it’s strong and powerful, it’s heart pounding and breathtaking

Love is sad and love is happy

Love can be found within friendship, family and partners

Love is young and old

Love is forever!

How do you see love?

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Inspiration

There is only one person who has influenced me enough to aspire like them and that is my Mum, she is an amazing woman who has taught me what is right and wrong in life, guided me on the right path and gave me the gift of love.

My mum is strong and holds her family together, she ignores her own needs to put others first, she is not greedy, nor selfish and is always there for me for whenever I need her. She doesn’t live close to me so we speak on the phone everyday and just to hear her voice makes me smile. When ever I am feeling down and am in need of some kind but right words my mum will always be there to listen. Her voice heats up my heart, calms and comforts me. Her words are wise and give reason, her advise is always required. Sometimes words do not need to pass our lips in order to enjoy each others company as we have the same mind to understand each other, we talk in silence, nodding and smiling at each other.

She is the most caring person I know who will do anything for anyone, she is beautiful inside and out and full of so much love to give. She may be small but her hugs are huge, full of affection and warmth. My mum is an incredible woman who is completely dedicated to her family.

My mum once told me that love is like elastic, it just grows and stretches to fit everyone in, I never thought I could feel such an immense love that I had for my mum for anyone else until I had my boys and then I understood on how love was like elastic.

My mum just isn’t my mum she is my best friend, we have shared secrets and our clothes with each other, laughed and cried together, spent precious time together, enjoyed each others company and holidayed together.

My mum has taught me compassion, to respect others, how not to be selfish, to accomplish, to be forgiving, dedication, inspiration and how to appreciate.

My mum has taught me everything i know, She has been my teacher, my nurse, my counsellor, my friend, my chef, my rescuer, my cleaner, my babysitter and much more but above all she IS MY MUM! She has brought joy to my life, taught me how to play and have fun, she is my sunshine on a dull day.

If i can be half as good as my mum is to me than i know i have achieved something good in my life.

Love you Mum x

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308/366 Serpentines Gallery Yoko Ono #Smikesfilm boys smile

The boys and I travelled to London’s Hyde Park today to support Team GB in the mens triathlon. We had an amazing day and got to watch a bit of history as the Brownlee brothers passed us by and ended up winning gold and bronze medals. Once the race had finished we made our way to the serpentine gallery where the boys had their photo taken in a part of Yoko Ono’s interactive #smilesfilm online gallery. Smilesfilm is a worldwide participatory project that encourages participation online. Conceived as a way of connecting people across the world, the project invites people to upload and send images of their smiles by hash-tagging #smilesfilm, creating a global string of smiles covering the planet.
And here are my boys smiling away

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It’s all about the smile.

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