Last year was not a very good year to many people, me included. 2016 was pretty shit, to put it lightly.
Many people lost their lives through illnesses or disasters in 2016. To be honest I didn’t spend much time watching the news or reading the papers about what was going on around me as I was in my own little nightmare.
This year I would like you to be kinder to me and my family, please.
We have been through so much and deserve just a little break.
2016 saw me being diagnosed with Bowel Cancer, adeno carcinoma, an unusual cancer for a young woman of my age to get. In fact it is rare and there are only two of us diagnosed with such cancer in the hospital that I received my treatment at.
Last year I under went 5 and a half weeks of radiotherapy and taking chemotherapy tablets.
Last year I spent 8 days in hospital with an internal infection due to the radiotherapy harming my bladder and bowel.
Last year I had my tumour taken away (well what was left of it).
On top of everything that I went through in the space of 5 months, you decided that you would throw a little more at me.
After my first surgery, I had complications and just 2 weeks later I had to have an emergency operation on my small bowel.
You see 2016, I am stronger than what you think I am.
In 7 months I went through hell and back, physically and emotionally. Not only did I suffer but it effected family and friends.
So this year, 2017, I would like you to take into account on what I went through last year and take pity on an underweight Mummy who just wants to be here for her children.
I would like to laugh again. A real good belly laugh.
I would like to be fear free.
I would like to spend precious time with my boys without thinking about time.
2017, I would like to be left alone please. Let me be. Allow me to be who I want to be.
I want to have tears of happiness. I want the tears to roll down my face and onto a smile
I don’t want any more sadness or bad news. I want to be hopeful.
Dear 2017, please be kind to me.
A very tired, but hopeful Angela