My Unconditional Love

When I found out I was pregnant with all three of my boys, I never had that instant feeling of love for them. It sounds wrong doesn’t it? It wasn’t until I felt that first little flutter in my tummy (that could have easily been passed for wind) that I wanted to protect them. As the boys grew and my tummy started to expand I began to feel and see their little feet and hands pushing against my skin, I knew then that the love I had for them was unconditional. I knew that no-one would come even close to the love I had for them. A parents love and need for their children is strong.

The first time I held my boys and looked into there eyes, I only felt love. I didn’t want to let them go, put them down or leave them with anyone. I wanted to cherish as much of them as possible. I was selfish in a way, as I didn’t want anyone else to be with them. They were mine, all mine. I breathed in their sweet sweaty smell of their skin, I stroked their cute little wrinkled face, I watched as they wrapped their tiny little fingers around mine, I felt their tiny heart beat against my skin and I held them tight. As tight as I could. Motherly love instantly kicking in. No time for tiredness just time for them.

Since giving birth to my first son some 13 years ago, I havent really left them with anyone. My life changed. I became a stay at home Mum and spent my days hugging and holding my boys. It’s not that I don’t trust anyone with them but I need to be near them, I need to be close to them. I am their protector, their guide through life. We do everything together, obviously they do their own things with friends but when they are at home we are always together.

My boys are certainly Mummy boys. Where ever I go they go too. I can’t even go to the toilet without them waiting outside of the door for me. It’s me who they confide in when having troubles at school or with friends. It’s me who they come to when they are upset. It’s me who they cry for when they are hurt. It’s me who kisses all their hurt away. It’s me who they sit and watch TV with and cuddle up to on the sofa. Dad is around but it has always been Mummy. My fault entirely for being over protective of them. But I wouldn’t change it. They are independent boys, they don’t need me for anything but I am always near by if and when they need me.

From the first moment I held my boys to now my love has not faltered. I have the same fluttery feeling, my heart aches and I get a lump in my throat.

As I have said before, my boys are my life. They are the reason why I fight every day. They are the reason why I am so strong. They are the reason why I have hope.

Recently with the bad news that I received, my heart ripped in two. I know it sounds weird but I felt it. My heart ached. It pained. It was hard to breathe. My throat was dry. My boys showed me that Love will conquer. Love is strong. My heart is nothing without them. The love I receive from them is full on, mighty and energetic.

We are a team.

My love may be unconditional for them but It certainly isn’t blinded by their behaviour. My boys are no saints. They fight, shout, scream, their lazy and messy. They can push me to the limit and I may shout at them but we all know that this is part of growing up, they know that I love them and I only want the best for them.

I love how my eldest has a strong passion for running and swimming. He is caring and thoughtful. He is very clever, being a member of mensa at the age of 11. His brain is like a sponge and when he talks its like he has swallowed a dictionary/thesaurus.

I love the middle ones sensitivity. He is very caring and loving. He loves his lego and has a creative imagination. He loves to spend time with family and be close to them. He is witty and charming.

I love the shear strength of the youngest. He is strong willed and very determined. I can see him being very clever when he is older but hopefully not get side tracked by peers. He is loving and bubbly. He is shy but also determined.

All three of them put their heart into everything and always want to achieve at their utmost.

All three are my unconditional love.

 

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Easy Green Vegetable Curry Recipe

I love a recipe that doesn’t take too long to cook. I’m all for throwing ingredients into a pan, exploring with the textures and tastes and seeing what the final product turns out like.

Curries are not only quick to cook but are also easy. I believe you need to experiment with different flavours in order to find that perfect recipe.

This recipe is not only easy but cooked all in one pan and a great way of using up all those vegetables that are in the fridge. What’s fabulous about a vegetable curry is that anything goes, you can put in any vegetable and it will work.

 

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Ingredients:

  • 6 big tomatoes, diced
  • Half red onion, sliced and diced
  • 250ml water/stock
  • 3 garlic gloves, diced
  • 2 small courgettes, sliced
  • 2 handful of green beans, sliced
  • Pack of mangetout and broccoli florets
  • 3 tbsp black eyed beans
  • Extra virgin coconut oil
  • 1 small red chilli, sliced
  • 1tsp coriander
  • 1tsp cumin
  • 1tsp turmeric
  • 1tsp ground cardamom
  • 1tsp curry/chilli powder

Method:

  • Fry the onion and garlic in a pan with 2 tbsp of coconut oil.
  • Once the onions are soft add in the tomatoes.
  • The tomatoes will become soft and begin to make a sauce. Add in some of the water/stock. Stir
  • Add in spices and stir. You could use garam masala paste.
  • Once you have a sauce add in your choice of vegetables and cook for 5-10 minutes until all vegetables are cooked, dente.
  • Sprinkle with flaked almond. Serve with rice.

Enjoy :-)

 

Leafy Spinach Soup Recipe

This lovely leafy soup is flavoursome and a great way of eating your five a day. It is very filling, light and healthy.

I have recently changed my diet due to my diagnosis. All the fresh food that I buy is organic and I have cut out all added sugar produce.

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Ingredients:

  • 450g fresh spinach
  • 1 handful of kale
  • 3 potatoes, peeled and chopped
  • 1 small onion, chopped and diced
  • 450ml vegetable stock
  • 3 garlic cloves finely chopped
  • Grated zest of lemon and half lemon squeezed
  • 1/2 tsp of grated turmeric
  • salt and pepper to taste
  • Extra virgin coconut oil

Method:

  • Place the onion and garlic in a pan with 1tbsp of coconut oil and cook for 1-2 minutes until the onion is soft. Add in the potatoes and fry for 1 minute. Add in the stock and simmer for a further 10 minutes.
  • Add in the spinach, kale, turmeric and lemon. Place a lid on and cook for 15 minutes or until the spinach has wilted.
  • Allow to cool for 5 minutes.
  • Pour the soup into a blender and blend until smooth. I like it a bit rustic so I don’t blend for too long as I think that it tastes better.
  • You can freeze the soup or reheat it up and serve.

You could swirl in some cream at the end and add salt and pepper to taste or even some chilli.

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Hope you like it :-)

 

Living the nightmare

Last month was the cruelest month ever. My family and mine life was rocked with the worst possible news ever. News that you never think will happen to you. I was given the diagnosis of having a tumour. I am living in a nightmare. I keep thinking that I will wake up soon and everything will be back to normal. It just doesn’t seem real. It’s like having an outer body experience (only way I can describe it) Everything is moving, clocks are ticking, days are moving into weeks but my life seems to be staying still. I feel like I’m in a zone and struggling to coping with everything that is happening.

To be honest I feel like shit, but only mentally. As I am still fit and healthy, I’m exhausted but only emotionally.

I have experienced every emotion possible. My life has been an emoji. But as the days go on I am beginning to feel stronger about things. Yes, I do have those days where I worry and fret about my future, but I have here and now to get through.

Today was my first treatment day after having three weeks of test after test. It is going to be long. It is going to be gruelling. It is going to get tiring. It Is going to get better.

How do I feel?

Strong. Stronger than ever.

I have the biggest support from close family and friends, to that I am thankful. It has really got to me at times. I have cried and I have had a broken heart. I needed to get through that motion before becoming to the point that I am at now.

Before the diagnosis I was changing the families diet and this has just spurred us on even more to eat and drink healthier. I have been going out jogging daily and even managed to run in the Westminster Mile at the weekend with my boys.

Eating food high in alkaline, juicing every day, buying organic, keeping fit and taking supplement tablets may only be a placebo but it is certainly making me feel better about myself.

This Girl Can……

Celebrating the release of Minuscule by Bug Hunting in the Garden

MINUSCULE is this half-term’s must-see animated adventure film for the whole family that follows a battle between tiny beasts for the spoils of an abandoned picnic, arriving in cinemas May 27th, 2016.

Film still of 'Minuscule: Valley of the Lost Ants', 2013 France/Belgium animated film, co-written and directed by Helene Giraud and Thomas Szabo[11SEP2014 48HRs FILM REVIEW 2]

A fantastic tale taking place at ground level, MINUSCULE is the perfect half term treat for all the family. Based on the popular Cbeebies TV show, MINUSCULE blends stunning CGI animation with live action backdrops to really transport little ones to the undergrowth where they’ll embark on a huge adventure with this half term’s tiniest heroes.

 

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See the trailer here

To celebrate the release of creepy – crawly animated adventure Minuscule (in cinemas on 27th May 2016), we have been given Bug Hunting Safari Kit to seek out the tiny creatures and build them homes. Here’s how we got on.

The Interplay Bug Safari kit enables children to explore the fascinating world of bugs and mini-beasts in their own back garden. The safari kit contains tongs, magnifier pot, tweezers, lens and a brush.

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My boys love to be outdoors and can spend every minute of the day outside running around and enjoying nature. They specifically like to hunt for bugs and believe that they may just find a new species. Their fingers and clothes are always being soaked in hot soapy water after spending hours digging up my garden searching for mini beasts.

They couldn’t wait to try out the Bug Safari and was soon using the field lens and bug tongs discovering fascinating creatures that lie underneath blocks of wood and that live within the grassy area of the back garden. It wasn’t long before they had a woodlice and a centipede to look at in the magnifying pot.

I spy a centipede

I spy a centipede

Look what i've got

Look what I’ve got

The tweezers are ideal for catching larger bugs, but be careful not to damage them and the brush is very useful in catching the smaller creatures as you can sweep them into the pot. The kit is a really fun way of finding and identifying bugs.

Along with the equipment in the kit there is also a book that contains a tick list of mini-beasts and bugs, did you knows and where to find specific creatures.

We found out that centipedes do not have 100 hundred legs as the name suggests but that they generally have between 30 and 70 legs. Using the magnifying pot we counted the legs on the centipede that we found and found that our one had 34. We didn’t keep them in the pot for too long, just long enough to investigate the creepy crawlies and then we let them back where we found them.

The boys now have their very own little bug expedition kit in the back garden, all set up at the top of their fort ready to bug hunt whenever they see a creature.

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The children really enjoyed the bug hunting and are now really excited to see the film and I’m sure once they have watched the film it will inspire them to get out into the back garden and hunt some more.

To grab yourself a bug safari kit take a look on what Interplay have to offer here

Here are some downloadable instructions to follow for the children  How To Go Bug Hunting...

We was sent the bug safari kit to review alongside the release of the film. No payment has been received. 

Introducing the ant size animation: Minuscule

If you go down to the woods this spring, you’re sure of a tiny surprise as the mini-beasts go antennae-to-antennae for the spoils of a picnic.

Lionsgate Films is proud to announce the release of MINUSCULE, an animated family adventure that follows a battle between tiny beasts for the spoils of an abandoned picnic, arriving in cinemasMay 27th, 2016.

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In a peaceful little clearing, the remains of a picnic hastily abandoned spark a standoff between two tribes of ants. A bold and brave young ladybird finds himself caught in the middle of the battle but, having befriended Mandible, one of the black ants determined to protect their haul of sugar cubes, sides are picked. With the safety of the black ants’ nest at risk, our plucky ladybird helps take on the aggressive red ants, led by the evil Butor, and must use all his ingenuity and resolve to win the day.

A fantastic tale taking place at ground level, MINUSCULE is the perfect half term treat for all the family. Based on the popular Cbeebies TV show, MINUSCULE blends stunning CGI animation with live action backdrops to really transport little ones to the undergrowth where they’ll embark on a huge adventure with this half term’s tiniest heroes.